Closing 2007

What better way to close out 2007 than to be drunk as shit and at a keyboard the last morning of the year! I am just getting back home after a fabulous night with my best friend Miguel, my new (and improved) room mate Carlos, Miguel's hot mixed (white-boy loving) coworker at Apple and their other weird attention-seeking skinny awkward co-worker. (Also at Apple.)

I don't know. Maybe I'm in a fucking philosophical mood. Or maybe I'm just stark-raving mad. Or maybe I'm just (irritated or annoyed or dumbfounded) by Dominic's passive-aggressivity over his "secret" blog.

Maybe I'm just super-pissed at Republican hypocrisy. They want to close the border to the Mexican invasion however 6 years after 9/11 the containers that carry the billions of pounds of poisonous Chinese shit through our ports still go unchecked. They blame the damn Mexicans for stealing American jobs however support corporations who want to ship American jobs over to India and (giggle) Mexico because Mr. Patel and Mr. Gonzalez work in countries where such things as the minimum wage are unheard of.

But enough of that. Hopefully Hilary (Obama?) will point that out when s(he) wins the primary. All I can worry about is me... in the here and now and shit that I feel I need to get off my chest.

To "no one in particular":

- For the record, USPS "confirmed" a delivery to the address in question. Either you are lying or someone else that works at the Hotel Elysee is sporting some fresh new undies. I guess its a moot point seeing as how you were sending them back.

- You needn't worry of me ever contacting you again. I've done as you requested and deleted your contact information. I was foolish (optimistic?) to think that you would choose to let go of the victim role and move on from the past. It seems like you enjoy holding onto past pain and using it as an excuse to not gain the emotional "evolution" you say (and sing) that you lack.

- Slow your roll next time you start dating someone. SLOW DOWN! Maybe not everyone falls in love as quickly as you do. You need to respect that someone may not feel as strongly for you as you do for them. Its life and the risk you take when you put your heart in someone else's hands.

- I honest to whatever God exists wish you the best in life and that you find happiness, if not in 2008, then sometime soon.

To America:

Stop being afraid of people you don't understand, be they Mexican or Muslim. We can once again be a truly powerful and respected nation if we stop all the BULLSHIT and get back on track.

To Myself:

This was a good year. Sad as it may sound, you've finally grown up and are an adult at 28 years old. You've learned to value the valuable and to see things as close as possible to as they are and not as how you think they are, or should be. You've learned what you want out of life and people and have learned to not compromise yourself for nobody. You've finally learned how to love yourself and to LET THE FUCK GO of things that penultimately do not matter.

Look at how far you've come from the fat kid with Coke-bottle glasses walking home with tears down your chubby cheeks wondering what would be the quickest way to end your misery. What man can tear you down today, other than yourself?

And that is the last obstacle that stands before you right now: yourself. How much more could you have accomplished in 2007 had you simply the will to? How much more will you leave undone in 2008 because you simply lacked the motivation to do so?

Oh, BTW, check out Mary's new album. That joint is FIYAH!!